Wednesday, June 20, 2007
June 21, 2007
Messing uphi guys...i just got packed for my camp the next day...haha(paiseh)...anyways...the reason i just finished packing is cos i was ironing my clothes and doing some wierd stuffs...0.0 (sounds wrong don't it?)anyways...to heck with the camp lar...
i made myself feel upset...and i dun even understand why i should be feeling this way...
it sucks! you hear me?!?! it SUCKS!
why did i have to go and say something like that...and even though your reaction is like i expected, why the hell am i still feeling this way when i already agreed that i would stay off to one side?!?!?! that i would not interfere...that i would not get hurt...again
but what the hell happened?!?! i got fucked...this time by no one else but the one and only...Jerome Yam Guang Wen...Demented crazy ass bastard.
ARRGGHH!!!! fuck sia...and besides...wtfh am i feeling this way over a gal anyway? i already decided that i aint going to date or try to get a girlfriend again till im at least 18...and its still one hell of a long time to 18. i loved her...but i still got hurt bad in the end...so just leave me alone...oh my heart...just leave me...i dont want the pain that having u in my chest brings.
so wtfh am i doing this? and most of all...why am i doing this to myself??? dumb shithead.
ah well...at least now i know that im not likely to get her anyway...so i can move on now...and be fucking miserable about myself and the pain in my heart.
ah well...i never really stood a chance with her anyway. there was someone else better in her way...i might have seemed to be an older guy or something to her...but her heart aint with me...its with him...and i do wish her well...at least i know this guy...
he wont let her down...a bit stubborn maybe...but hes a good guy...i just wish i didn't have to feel like this...
to all you readers out there whos now thinking:"what an dumbshit!" or something else that only assholes can think up,
fuck you, fuck you and FUCK YOU!
the rest later.
JRomy 17yrs, 6 months and 21 days
"Cast all your cares upon Him, for He cares for you."
The Bible
JEROME signs off
@11:24 AM.