Wednesday, December 19, 2007
Long days, short nights
ever wondered why sometimes, when your in the middle of something, you wonder why you even started doing that to begin with? im just miserable at work...lots of crap happening to me at sakae sushi...
you know? im working only half days, and im already super worn out...but at least theres something that keeps me there, the fact that i need the pay more badly than the bullshit i put up with. its that my family needs the money...and needs it badly...i might move out of toa payoh sometime soon...and i dont want to, but there is no choice...no choice at all...
i dont think that i have ever been quite this miserable during the period approaching christmas...never, not even once in my entire life, have i ever felt so shitty around this time of the year...
anyway, my school just ended for a 2 wk break, and i've already burnt the first wk working...how miserable is that? anyway, 2nd wk wont be working quite so much, cos its de christmas period...maybe just the weekends...
there are a few small bright spots in my life at this point though, first of which is my brothers, Kenneth and Shawn, or KS (cos they always steal my kills...buggers), those 2 have always made me feel that much better after meeting them...haha...secondly is that i passed my basic theory test! It means, for those of you who dont understand, that im 1 step closer to getting my motorcycle license! ^^ yay!
Anyway, the chains of the past have fallen away and im now free, free to do what I want to, to enjoy my teenage life, as is befitting a teen in this time and age.
I sometimes wonder if I should get myself a girlfriend...its not like i cant get one...its just that i dont want one...not till im ready to get her cos i actually want something more than just physical gratification...this body is sinful...well and truly steeped in sin...never to be truly free from it, yet having to fight it daily...till the time that i can go Home and meet the Father, i will fight my sinful desires...
Up and On! Saints 4eva!
the rest later....
JRomy Yam, 18 yrs 12 mths, 20 days
And as he does these things, the unseen ones look on in silence, forever watching him, forever remaining mere spectators in the flow of time that makes 1 young man's life. His mother is ill at home yet he is unable to do anything about it. He now knows futility in a new way, one which will change things for him. What changes? We shall have to wait and see...forever silent
JEROME signs off
@12:18 PM.
