Monday, May 25, 2009
Insane
Hello there...its been a while since i blogged. =X I wonder why i keep this thing up at all anyway?
Ok, enough of that. Heres some news...IM BEING DRIVEN CRAZY!!!
By this extremely beautiful and attractive young lady called G_____.
Ok...heres how it all started...
I was invited to join this MLM company called (blank) *no naming companies here!!* by my friend Wai Dek....and i agreed to come down and have a look. Then...i was introduced to his upline, his JC-ex classmate...(as mentioned earlier). And she was SUPER friendly...i really liked her approach and all. And then i realised that i was falling asleep with my eyes wide open as she was talking...i figured it was just fatigue and all. but then i realised...it was her eyes that so mesmerised me. That and her speech...it was like a moth being drawn irristably to flame...i was so...dazed. Its like nothing I experienced before....im seriously going crazy. And the touch of her hand...she kept patting my leg!! It was'nt uncomfortable or anything like that..if anything it was the exact opposite...it was driving me wild. With desire, not passion or love, im willing to admit. That was why i asked to be excused for a while, claiming i needed the toilet. I had to get away from the one thing that was making me lose control of the iron band i had placed over my desires and heart. She is the one thing that could possibly make me break my oath to myself to never let myself like or love another girl in the BGR sense again. At least till the army is behind me. You know...? When she was sitting next to me in the session I was attending tonight, I was...I felt like I was suffocating. Literally. And when she was messaging so much, I got curious and sneaked a look at her message. Looked into the front of her dress by accident too, my heart nearly stopped. I looked at her handphone screen (it was damm near the neckline of her dress, too) and I saw part of her message saying that she was messaging her boyfriend and the bottom of my stomach felt like it just dropped out and got filled with lead instead. sigh...I know im not in love or anything. Although im close to some VERY strong desires atm. And whats more, I have to deal with her on such a constant basis...considering that I'm joining the company and all. She's my upline afterall...haha. >.<
Soldier Of Fortune (Deep Purple)
I have often told the stories above the way
I've lived the life of a drifter, waiting for the day
When i take your hand and sing your song
and maybe you would say:
come lay with me and love me
and i would surely stay
but i feel im getting older...
and the songs that i have sung
echo in the distance
like the sound...of a windmill going round...
guess i'll always be a Soldier of Fortune
Many time i been a traveller and i look for something new...
days of old and nights of cold, i wandered without you
those days've fogged my eyes n see you standing here.
though blindness is confusing, it shows that your not here
now i feel im growing older...
and the songs that i have sung.
echo in the distance...
like the sound...of a windmill going round...
guess i'll always be a soldier of fortune
i can hear a sound, of a windmill going round...
guess i'll always be a soldier of fortune...
guess i'll always be....a soldier of fortune...
Ahh...this song...how i do like it so...
sounds quite right for myself...sad, mellow, alone. wishing he can stop walking around aimlessly. its sad, perhaps, but that does not make it any less true.
Haha...and maybe if the Lord will permit, he will be able to get a good girlfriend...someone like the above mentioned G_____...=P
And still the Silence is within him...
Awaiting the right time to bring him under
And when all is said and done,
Nothing will have been accomplished.
The rest later...
19 Years, 5 months and 26 days.
JEROME signs off
@10:17 AM.
