Monday, July 16, 2007
17 July '07
Confirmation
hahas...guess i managed to confirm it today huh? the miseries that have plagued men and women since time began. i have just managed to find out that im included in it too.
i swear, im such an idiot. always going to the places where i will get hurt. but i just cant help not knowing whats going on.
jerome yam, you fool, you poor poor fool. go beat your head against a wall, why dont you? i mean. its the same as what your doing to yourself emotionally right? and you dont seem to quite mind it. so go ahead! bang your head as much as you want to. do it until your happy lar. idiot.
the rest later.
JRomy 17 yrs, 7 months and 17 days
*bang bang* (hits head against wall really hard)
0.o'
JEROME signs off
@7:15 PM.
Thursday, July 12, 2007
12 July '07Perhaps betrayal...?
hey you,if your reading this, thanks for the effort to drop by here and check on this blog =].
anyways...im kinda sian...cos i found out that one of the people i called my brothers is going out with my ex-gf. and while im happy shes found someone like him, im also sort of upset about it. and i dont understand why i should be feeling this way. i mean, after all, while i still do love her very much and would want to be a part of her life once again, im no longer someone very important to her, so why should i be feeling this way? and im not pissed at my brother either...just a bit...cool towards him, perhaps. arrgh hell. i dont even know what im saying anymore.
its not like she ratted on me to go out with him....we broke up almost 1 1/2 years ago. so why do i feel so betrayed? even when i KNOW i should not. sigh...sometimes i think God likes to play cruel jokes on me. i know i've had quite a few played on me already. so please God, if you can hear me and see this message...please stop the pain at least? its driving me quite to the edge already. im tired...so tired of everything. why cant the world just be perfect? even if its just for 1 day? please make the world perfect? please?
The rest later.
JRomy 17 yrs, 7 months and 12 days
and by the way, (onetime) dear, if you do read this, please dont feel bad or anything. its not your fault, i dont blame you for what happened. i messed up. so please dont feel guilty on my account, and if you do, well, i cant quite help you. take care always ya? ='|
JEROME signs off
@2:04 AM.
